Poem - A Fool of A Friend

Its important to understand what life is
But you, for many other are just foolish
People say the truth but you bow away
While when a lie is told, you never stray
Its hard to say whether you understand or not
All you do is your own plot
Caught by the sin and feel the quest
While satan is burning on your nest
See clearly my dear as you do not live long
Or to be honest you are not that strong
See and feel not by the damage
But for the purification of white image
Do understand I am not you
So what she's been saying was only for you
If God is willing, I'll choke myself out of your life
So I could live on my long strive
Love does not complete a world
Love compliments life in a swirl
You compliment me in so many ways
But sometimes I felt it kinda waves
Sometimes you care, but only for sake
There is no love for what used to be on cakes
See my dear see as the end waits
That you only leave a bit of traits
I wrote this poem not for me
But just for you to clearly see
You are human so open your eyes
Life is no joke, nor just meat and pies.

-Lil-

Art, Dali, Cedric, Giselher, Toby, Edward and Rob

Lol. You ain't seeing Edward Cullen now, huh!

This is Arthur.


This is Salvador Dali.
What, you want a boy?


This is Golden Boy Cedric Diggory.
What, you miss Edward?? Wait up.


Giselher, a bad hair. Lol!
You want Edward?


My lonely boy, Mr. Toby Jugg.
Really, miss Edward???



Okay fine! Here's Edward Cullen.
Hehe. But it doesn't stop here. My favourite is coming.

There is my favourite. Mr Robert Pattinson.
No one is as good as he is.
:)

Guys are your Gods if you're Juana

Based on The Pearl, a literary by John Steinbeck (author of East of Eden, James Dean.. Gosh) and the lowly obedient Juana. Seriously, you'll say you'll never be Juana at all cost. You'll say its not good if a guy hurts a girl by one bit but on the other bit, you're still a puppy dog lingering by his side. Now, Juana is very obedient, even if during the time when Kino hits her for the mighty pearl, she didn't rush for a fight. Some say its because she knows her husband and he'll hurt her more bad if she did fought back. True true, but how many here knew in deep of the guy they love like Juana knew her husband? A severe 1 year of knowing the guy does not consider knowing. Juana had been married to Kino for a long time and she knew who her husband was, she sees the good side of him for a very long time, a measured husband to her, a loyal father to Coyotito. Now what do you know of the guy you love apart of whats his name, what is his likes and dislikes, where does he live and his Spacebook password? That is not knowing the person. Knowing a person means you see the good in him, not because he helped you in things, but you see it grow from the bottom of his heart. Loving a person means (one of a thousand meanings that is) feel grateful that he is for you and only you. I know, to love a person is to look pass his flaws, but what if those flaws make you bleed? Is it nessesary to live by the rule of unconditional love? Apparently, you are not qualified for it or any love story of all sort of matter. Juana lived by the rule of uncoditional love because she knew the husband, she cares for the husband, she knew what the pearl had made him and she knew who her husband of many years is. So shame on you if you say Juana is stupid to let Kino hit her, as for I, I thought Juana was right to be quiet, because she still see the good in Kino and if bleeding was nessesary to bring the old Kino back, then she wil, which she does. Its harder to find the eyes like Juana and by all means, girls left out the love for the lust. Now, lust is subjective, so lust does not always mean sex. Lust could have been pondering on the same jerk, lust could have you gravel for his money, lust is subjective. So if you are in Juana;s position that knew and love your husband dearly, you'll be obliged to make him your God (not literally, god is Allah). And if you are with a god, you've clearly took all the 7 heavens in hand.

A nudge in the heart

Sorry if my words are not for your liking.
Its reality I was explaining.
Not meant for you.
But if you feel a nudge then its only you.
I might not be right.
But my words are tight.
My words were meant for a man.
But seems that he doesn't give a damn.
If my words gave you a heart ache.
I'm sorry for the words I create.
Again, sorry if my words are not for your liking.
Its reality I was explaining.

-Lil
And Lil is so proud of all the rhyming!!!
It wasn't intended but the rhyme just kept clinging!
And I'm still rhyming!

Words for Maturity

No one is mature.
Keep thinking, Lads.
At 5 years old, no maturity obviously.
At 15 years old, still immature.
At 25, close to mature but never fully.
At 35, immature in wanting to become a child again.
At 45, you went senile and no one is mature when senile.
At 55, you die of immaturity. But you still live, in the sensation of nothing matters anymore.
At 65, you're being a kid again, wanting this and that, maturity that you already have decreases.
At 75, most of you are under the ground already.

But Lads,
WHAT THE FUCK DO I KNOW?
I'm 17 and I don't know how to be a 25, 35, or even a 75!
For me, 'mature' is just a word to describe if he or she does understand, if he or she balanced her life, if he or she knows what wastes their time and what does not and if he or she knows, what to let go and what to grasp in.
Mature does not mean talking aloof or making yourself higher than other people. Mature does not mean fake yourself, putting self on shame.
Mature has it levels and some has a higher will to be in a higher level of maturity, because it ain't easy to be mature and people love easy, thus the lack of maturity.
Some say, "You're young, have fun!" Urm, excuse me, if someone is mature he/she still could have fun. Please do note that mature people does mistakes too. Immature people does mistakes, and does it again. That is the difference.
If you still command on just having fun, seriously Lad, you are screwed to life.
Its time to grow up. You are not a child anymore. Even some child is much mature than you are.
Life is not about girls and boys anymore, its about people. And people grow up.
Don't end up being a girl and a boy only. Be a person.

Lil

P/s - This is fully intended for every gap of age, but specially for Melawati's new gossip blogger, God's Creature, form 2 in melawati. Dunno her, but definitely don't wanna know her. Still, she inspired me to write the above. If you get it (all of you) then GREAT! If you don't... well, wait another few years before reading stuffs like this again. If you still don't, get your fucking life stable dude!!!

Know yourself for the better worse that could happen.

I am immature and this is note to self. Because blogs doesn't go away. Diaries do.