Then, "Alamak, kena pakai tudung la ni..."
Third, it was all, "Fuck it."
My first thought of the Uni was, "Hmph..." because its three different eras (or something) I've been here for legitimate reason and the third was legitimately of me, only me.
First appreciation in Uni, "Thank God lecturer cool sume!"
Second appreciation, "Thank God, Roomies, Classmates, Friends, Too cool!" Yeah I used the term cool a bit much, boo hoo.
Third appreciation, "Thank God dapat Khadijah College, Zainab College sengsara, baju sampai lutut baru boleh kuar bilik and fellow sangat busy body! I've met the Principle of Mahallah Khadijah with skinnies and blouse 5 inches above knee and she said nothing but, 'Hello Liyana, how are you?' while Zainab College 'Sis, pakai baju tu tak menutup aurat, kalau awak college ni saya dah saman.' WTF?!"
And then the exam went in and well I did okay. And then final went in and shit I didn't learn but bits. And then holiday came in interrupted by results which was fine but could have been better, got Dean's List which I thought was a bad thing. Haha. I am thankful, very much.
Now, of course IIUM is international ISLAMIC University Malaysia, but trust me, its not just about the religion itself but understanding the revolution around it and life, which is honestly is even better than the Ustazahs in my high school preaches. The "Kamu mesti sembahyang, kamu mesti takut tuhan, kamu mesti buat kebaikan, bla bla bla" is basically a zero effort, while here I learned why we must love Allah. The answer for what must you do to get His help is not anymore, "Just pray." Its much more. And it consumes the scientific of the world in our religion, in Islam, which makes much more sense than empty preaches.
What I also learn was making friends wasn't as hard as losing one (Its very hard for me to lose one) so means I'm not really the empty shell in loneliness. I got a friend. I got a friend who knows a friend. I got a friend who transfered to another uni and made friends with my old friend. If that makes sense, good. I feel as though I've talked 100% more than I did when I was in elementary. And did I mention I got elected as Class Representative? Yeah, its cool.
What I loved most was that it is so much easier than high school. In other words. lesser drama, more learning. And frankly, I hate dramas unless its on tv. Real life drama is fake and annoying and just too many excuses just to create another drama. Bullshit in my say.
Instead of sulking for a bad day, I sulked for not doing my best. Instead of thanking God for passing the test, I want more. I'm not done. Will do much better, and will try much better.
The bad thing was, studio sucks because there are so many people more fucking talented than I am, and much cooler than me too. Apart from that, I've enjoyed my stay.
Liyana Yasmin Sinaga
